Big sighs here.
Have decided I'm going to slow life down a bit. I crave adventure and living on the edge. I want flexibility, freedom, cultural immersion, new experiences. I feel as though it's part of my DNA now and I couldn't live without it. The thought of 9-5 jobs scare me. The thought of mortgages, interest rates causes me to want to pack my bag and head off. I don't think it's a fear of committing.. more a fear of being boring, being settled, actually I don't believe that I could find contentment in that.
Is it that I need to grow up? Is it that I have been so on-the-go that it's made a bit of turmoil in my mind of what is normal? I know being sold out for God isn't a second rate life. There's adventure, sacrifice and JOY. Joy is my favourite feeling/state of being. I crave it. But I guess there needs to be that peace, that stability, that contentment at all times before you can truly experience the adventures. Sometimes there needs to be "down" time where you just sit and be. Sit and be. It's hard, you know? Stop running.. breathe, let God's love wash over you.
Adventures can happen anywhere too. A new friend has a ministry with her nextdoor neighbours (the kids) and has her God-work cut out for her there. She doesn't need to go, she is content and finds God-adventure where she is. He sees her willing heart and uses her.
Mixed up post, I know. Just getting it out there. God is my refuge, my strength, my sustenance, my future, my hope, my all. I can't run from him. It doesn't work. I don't want to.
Better go.. being domesticated for our welcome home me family thing tomorrow.
Love x
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
2 comments:
Hey Kel, yeah it is hard to be content in the slow times. I guess it's the mediocrity...sigh. I think they're the times when our willingness to be content in God is really tested, I know mine is.
Good post!
I always find your stuff encouraging, so thankyou.
i know what you mean Kel.
i think your alot like me... you have a heart and passion to travel and explore and live life spontaneously..... and anything less just seems weak and pathetic.
I'm working 9-5 right now... but only so i can save money to start my future adventures..
I guess it's getting the right balance between stability and spontaneous stuff in your life.
but when your young is the best time to do it they say...
in ten years you'll probably have a different attitude... hehe.
So make sure in 10 years time you come back and read your post..
Keep up the fine posting. I like reading your thoughts.
HB
Post a Comment